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Most of our problems are ones we create ourselves

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I’ve been thinking about this lately. I rarely hear my parents complain about their work. They never talk about how exhausting it is. But I often hear them surrender to what is naturally given by nature like the season not being right for crops and how they might rot and how unlucky that is, or the scorching heat that will damage the newly planted seedlings, or the high price of fertilizer and how the fruits will decrease compared to the last season, and other similar things. But it’s never about themselves. Sometimes I hear that my father is sick or my mother feels like she’s getting a cough. But even that sounds normal compared to my own problems, which often sound like undiagnosed depression, a mentally exhausted soul even though my work is not as hard as theirs.

That’s why it feels unfair to share my condition with them. From their perspective, which is not familiar with psychological terms, everything would sound trivial. And maybe it really is. Maybe I seek too much validation for my fatigue and boredom through obvious terms, making it seem like I am the most tired human in the world.

But my question is, where are their complaints hidden? Who hears them? Or are they just thoughts that come and go? How can they be like that? Is there a tip for that? Or…